There is impending gloom all around us, whether it’s through action movies killing and slaughtering thousands of innocent people, or the real wars occurring throughout the world in the name of peace or stupid religion. The violent video games scare me, as it is acknowledging that it okay to kill people and causes desensitisation in humans. Where have the morals of love disappeared to? It’s easier to judge rather than think a nice thought about someone. So perhaps today I might spread some wisdom through this post. It is good to love, understand, forgive, and be generous with your emotions.
If you tend to grow angry when you drive your car because of other drivers, know that this is just the world of road rage. It is there to cause your tension and anxiety. There is always someone in a rush and makes stupid mistakes on the way. So instead of reacting with angst, aim to forgive and love.
It is said the flutter of a butterfly can create a wave of change across the world, so why not make that change, not with rage or anger, but with positive emotions. Use love to heal yourself and affect change around you. Ghandi said “Be the change that you want to see in the world.” I’m trying, although it is difficult at times. I noticed this morning that there a lot of subconscious self-hate in myself, and I’m not exactly sure of why. Why would I claw at my skin and cause years of scarring otherwise. Do I feel unworthy of love, but how can this be so when I have attracted such a loving wonderful partner into my life who is so accepting of me just the way I am and says I’m beautiful with or without scars. Maybe I have always looked at external beauty and strived to attain it knowing it is impossible, but the real love is from inside of me and my writing. This does not come from the want of acceptance in this world, as it will never be attained, but just knowing that I have changed for the better. Sure, I am a lot more sensitive than most people, but this isn’t a crime, and I don’t hurt anyone by trying to feel my way through life. I get knocked down… but I get up again.
Not enough of the world want to feel their pain and emotions, there is the intention to act them out. How can I heal my self hate if I do not bring these destructive thoughts to another level. The tears may be grief at the emotion dying or it may be the release of something else. The point is I am trying to reconnect with my soul. I actively try every day to make a change in myself. Some days I feel like a weight has been lifted, other days I am being pulled by quicksand into a dooming black hole. The emotional turmoil of my own mind is very tiring. The path to self-love and loving everyone else does get easier. So I want to be the butterfly effect of love affecting the world, as this is thousands of times more powerful than fear and hate.